Recursors

You know, I'm not even sure that's a word. Recursive, precursors; it definitely sounds like it should be, and I can see a meaning for it. Behaviour patterns or habits or ideas or even items that keep showing up in the same situation. Because you're a human, and you crave a known context, and half the time you reach a milestone you celebrate by reaching for a touchstone. And yeah, you can beat your habits to death--maybe, if you can bring yourself to wield very sharp rocks against that particular part of your psyche--but you don't. Why would you? They're not bad, they're just... comfortable. And maybe they bog you down a little. Maybe they ground you. It's hard to check, like pulling out your liver and lights just to see how they fit in to your abdomen, find out where they begin and end because they're so neatly packed into you that you can't tell.

It's been an odd morning, already. Not much sleep. (In fact, if you want to get technical, morning included a Tim Horton's coffee cake sometime past midnight.) Worked a little on NPCs for the LARP. Had a bad dream about zombies, which is a first--don't get me wrong, I appreciate their significant role in horror fiction, but I've never actually had a bad dream about zombies before. Normally they're just there. Got up after about four hours and change of sleep. I'm not really feeling tired, and I'm not sure why. tomtherat mentioned once that it was possible to train yourself into needing less sleep, but the process he described sounded rather more painful than anything I've noticed myself going through. Maybe it was just a good (half-)night's sleep before the dream.

Fans! continues, and it looks like the GraphicSmash/GirlAMatic archives have recovered from the crash. Am much relieved. The Stiff is continuing on its merry way, and I've got the nagging fear that the current WACOM tablet picture I'm working on is looking way way too much like Jason Thompson's art. It's probably just the fact that I've still got the hard-n-fast black outline on the face. (I really like this story. It's about a bunch of teenagers--and repression, auto-damnation, zombies, death, fun stuff like that--and yeah, they're going through high school and behaving about the way you'd expect, and yet something about the way he writes and draws makes me remember what it felt like. Maybe I just don't want to admit I'm getting old.)

New R.S.I. will be up later today. There, I've said it. Now I'd better do it.

Today, I am reminded that I is for Ida who drowned in a lake. I will go and contemplate all the ways in which this is appropriate to the subject of stuck patterns of behaviour, and how we find ourselves acting by reflex--thinking by reflex--instead of actually, you know, doing what we consciously want to do.

(It's a very large, dark lake.)

Catch-up

That took less time than I expected, actually (though I haven't gone through theweaselking's backposts yet).

For those of you who care, Athena Voltaire--Eisner Award nominee, and the webcomic Warren Ellis has described as "if THE MUMMY[1] and VAN HELSING were actually, you know, good,"--is now available on GraphicSmash. It updates Monday Wednesday Friday, it started last Monday (so you've only missed three pages: Hannah Von Helm has captured three American scientists and is claiming that they will be executed as spies, in a blatant attempt to lure Athena Voltaire into a trap), and it's nifty. I need to update my Links page.

According to a meme that couldn't even be bothered to spell her damn name right, if I were a Sin City character I'd be Lucille (30%), and am tied for That Yellow Bastard and Gail (25%). (Gail? Sh'yeah, right. Who writes these thi-- Right. Sorry.)

( I like mindfuck movies? Who knew? )

I've actually seen all of them, though I confess Pulp Fiction left me with a rather disjointed and not altogether favourable impression. I've been meaning to take another look at it.

iclysdale, what the hell did you do, wait until you knew I wasn't reading? The birthday meme tempts me. (And I didn't know the infamous crayoned calculus exam was on your birthday.) Good luck on the M~H party, though I have not yet seen a compelling enough reason to throw myself into any endeavour that will attempt to reduce the presence of Tim Hortons.

benarian, I am in fact a horrible slacker and very very slow to follow up on links. That said, do you do prints?
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[1] I still disagree with him on The Mummy. Great movie.

Noise!

On the topic of recursors...

Every time I post something awkward, I end up posting two-to-four more times in quick succession, and the follow-up posts tend to have the emotional content of a to-do list or a movie review.

Pfah.

Couple of lines delayed due to switching problems in London, nothing else of note.